October 6, 2010

Sort of back on track.  I am eating much closer to FFL, though I am still having some challenges there.  My exercise back on track as well.  CKT is also improving.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (237.50)



October 1, 2010

I am not even sure why, but I’ve been very lax in my FFL eating recently and the scale is starting to show it.  Probably some kind of a passive agressive “thing” with the wife, it seems the better she does on her own diet, the harder I find it to stay on mine . . . what’s that about?

Having eaten a perfectly acceptable (per FFL) meat dish, I then subconsciously reach for rice . . . why?  I don’t know . . . but funny thing is I knew I was doing it in the moment, I just didn’t’ care.

For some reason, being back up to 240 is very annoying . . . I’m not happy about it at all.

Anyway, not a time to be down and negative with myself.  Instead it is time to pick myself up by the bootstraps and refocus.  So far today (10/1), I’ve been good.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (240.0)


September 28, 2010

Life has been REALLY hectic recently, for some reason even more than usual.  Exercise, while I have done it, has often been a quick walk instead of a full workout.  CKT, starting to get some traction there, though it is still weak.

Eating, again not as good as I have been recently, but not terrible either.

Working my process among conflicting priorities and less free time that usual.


September 21, 2010

As I was exercising tonight and thinking about this blog and what I would post tonight, I started thinking about the reasons I have kind of stayed the same.  I started looking for the reasons and what changes I needed to make so that I could start loosing again in the way I would like to.

The funny thing is, I already know what all the reason are and I’m not doing them:

  1. CKT – I am pretty sure a lot of the weight I hold is from judgments, particularly self judgments.  CKT offers a framework for dealing with these self judgments and releasing them.  Yet I so far have done CKT only rarely and certainly not as often as I had said here I will do.  In fact, I’m not even sure what that commitment is in this moment . . . I’ll need to go look it up.
  2. Even though I publicly announced at a DSS class a goal of 220 by Living In Grace, I have yet to change anything in this web site to reflect that commitment.  On one level I’ve committed, but on other levels I have not.
  3. I have gotten a “little loose” in my eating per FFL . . . not terrible, but some mixtures that I shouldn’t have.  At first these were very rare, but in recent times, they have come every day or so.
  4. Additionally, around 2 to 2:30 each work day, I get the munchies.  I have not been very selective of what I eat then.

I am not saying that there are not new things I could do as well.  However, I really think these things that I already know do to could be key if I would just practice them.

I am going to take a few minute tonight and reorganize the tracking.  In part that is to reflect that the current spreadsheets are getting rather large, but in part that is to “start fresh” to record the new goals.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (237.00)


September 15, 2010

Exercise last night: 24 Hour Fitness (237.25)


September 10, 2010

Well over a week again since my last post . . . hmmm . . .

The funny think is that I feel my energy waining on this project in a number of way.  I’m just not as focused here as I once was.

All thinks to look at and monitor.

The good news is mostly I am eating well . . . perhaps cheating more than I have in the past, but mostly eating well and doing well physically.

I’ll update all my tracking now . . .

Most recent exercise, yesterday: 24 Hour Fitness (234.50).


August 31, 2010

The last day of the month; where has this month gone?

Mostly I’m doing pretty well.  Despite that fact that I haven’t been posting here much, I’ve been on track and eating right . . . mostly . . . for some reason I’ve started eating candy several times a week.  I know better, but it is free and “there” . . . something to monitor and bring into balance.

My wife has started some eating changes of her own under the supervision of her doctor.  That has been helping me a bunch since I often eat dinner “just because” rather than because I am hungry.  However, the eating less together has made the modest meals we do have together a lot more enjoyable and healthier.  While she is doing great and keeping on her program, I know she struggles with it as well.  Nice that we can support each other in a common goal.

The one item I have hardly been doing at all is CKT.  Yet I know how much that can help me and my attitude toward the world.  This reminds me of the old quote from Paul . . . “That that I know to do I don’t do . . .” . . . candy and CKT . . . I just have them wired backwards.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (236.25)


August 20, 2010

Lots of stress and upset right now . . . it is showing in the way I am eating which is in turn showing at the scale.  Still, given the situation, I’m doing “okay”.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (238.25)


August 11, 2010

Works has been nuts crazy . . . working all day Sunday to do a release of software that caused me tons of issue on Monday and Tuesday . . . still, I’ve been (mostly) eating correctly and doing my exercise.  Some other things are slipping, but so far not that.

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (230.0)


August 4, 2010

Eating has been a little better than in recent days . . . FFL is back on my agenda (he says having just eaten a few M&Ms).

Exercise: 24 Hour Fitness (234.75 Semi-Official Scale)